There are a lot of things you learn about yourself when you are put in different situations; everything we encounter teaches us something whether we want to learn it or not. Maybe we learn to love more unconditionally, to open our eyes and see from a different perspective, Perhaps we learn to trust our gut, stand up for ourselves, or that we are capable of more than we thought. It could even be trusting that we have the skills to shred down the gnar, are strong and can persevere.  I’ve been learning a lot about myself  recently; that I do have the ability and skills to shred, what I will tolerate and not tolerate, that I was raised to be a strong, independent woman, and oh, so much more.  All these “things” have led me to understanding my own needs, desires, and path.

What is my path? Well, I am a teacher by nature, it comes very naturally to me. I am a cheerleader for my students and I will do whatever I can in my power to see them succeed or to see them achieve a goal.  I am driven by adventure, by desire, by pure passion to see people achieve whatever they set out to do. I am a goal setter, a doer, a planner, a get shit done kind of person. For a while those were all things I felt like I was trying leave behind I felt like I was losing myself, losing my roots, my passion, and my identity. I was constantly beating myself up for not trying harder, being a better and more understanding, more empathetic person. I decided to focus on my goal, my desire, and passion.

It’s interesting to me that regardless of what I preach and teach to my students about positive thoughts, not being so hard on themselves, and be patient; I myself very quickly get caught up in the negative self talk. Why?, because I am very hard on myself. I set high goals, have even higher expectations, and try to balance my crazy schedule all while working towards those goals.  Everyday I try to step out of my comfort zone, better myself in some way, make a small progression, and keep moving forward.  I try to remind myself life is about the little progressions, each one of those little progression add up to mega progressions!  I may not always succeed with something, but I constantly try to better myself try to improve on something I’m not good at. I am trying to get comfortable with the uncomfortable and just be in the moment. I try to push myself out side of my comfort zone regularly. You never grow unless you take that step to the uncomfortable.

I am on the verge of something very exciting and kinda scary. It’s definitely going to require small progressions, minimizing the negative and beating myself up to achieve this goal. What is that goal? You’ll have to wait a bit longer to see what’s brewing. So goals? What are some of your goals or benchmarks to make this year? Are they big, small, close to meeting or still a ways off?


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