September was the last lil bit that was posted and there’s been a lot brewing since then. Oh, so much…. I closed out the inaugural season of CAMBA Jr’s with so many more kids and youth than I ever anticipated, and so many ideas for the upcoming season and beyond. I honed in my skills with a rad coach, became BICP level 2 certified, taught a bunch of clinics and lessons, and raced a few races. Oh…and I launched a business! Check it out! I did this while I worked a 40+ hour full time job, maintained 20 piano students, and continued to train. It’s been a whirlwind of a fall and start of winter and an emotional roller coaster to say the least. Self doubt, elation, fear, joy, anger, sadness, disappointment, happiness, excitement, exhaustion, emptiness, and yet fullness.

All this “stuff” has come with a cost… my weight. If you didn’t already know- I lost nearly 100lbs over 5 years ago and maintained a healthy weight since, until recently. I’ve been slowly gaining some weight since 2013, but I was ok with it. I felt comfortable for the most part. Well, my lack of self discipline, control, and vigorous exercise over the last year has cost me over 35lbs in the wrong direction and about 2-3 clothes sizes. I keep starting a better nutrition plan and exercise plan, but can’t seem to muster up the motivation to stick with it, and default back emotional eating and skimping on workouts. Do this a few for a few months and boom, hello borderline obesity. Ugh.  Sure I still ride my bike and lift, but not consistently or at a high intensity.  How do I plan to “fix” it? Right now, I’m not entirely sure, but what I do know is that I lost weight before, I can do it again one pound at a time.

I made a goal this year to set small monthly “goals” if you will. Things to focus on for one month at at time and then try to incorporate them into my daily life. Goals, like show more gratitude, accept where I am now and know that it’s not a fixed point, simplify as much as I can, de-clutter and organize, etc… I was pretty overwhelmed at the beginning of the year and failed my goal from the start; well, not really failed, just never actually started. So, it’s time to set goals and find inner peace, gratitude, and acceptance.  These goals will help me stress less, live more peacefully, and be a better version of me. This month, the goal- a 30 day plank challenge. I started on Feb 3, so it’s a little off, but who cares. Goal 2- accept where I am now, with body, my skills, everything. Accept and love!

I do not at all regret my choices this past year, I did so many great things and am stronger for it. I now know what it took and now I can find balance!



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